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While the rest of the world is busying themselves with the highly anticipated Obama inauguration, i'm loafing around in cyberspace, feeling particularly insignificant and unimportant. Oh, and random too. As exemplified below

What type of Random are you? Your Result: CHEESE!!! You are totally off-the-wall. You are passionate about everything, and since your ideas are so new, not everyone may understand them just yet. Don't worry. Your day will come as long as you don't get put into a straight jacket.
PUDDING!
SPAM!
OOH! SHINY!
What type of Random are you? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

When i first saw this quizzythingum on sengky's blog, i saw the words:"Pudding" and then... I saw "shinyi" lol. Don't ask me why. Maybe my brain compartmentalized and automatically grouped the 2 together. (random: tell me how can i not lump the 2 together when she puts i (l) pudding on her msn nick)

Okay, that's for the random part.

I'm rather pleased to annouce that i have completed my Twilight reading endeavour in my past 2 days of waiting/stoning at the dental clinic. Took quite a long time to finish the book due to random things popping up here and there and sometimes cos the contents were rather erm. squirmish.

And i thought the descriptions of how godly/angelic/perfect Edward was was already bad enough... But at that time i hadn't gotten to the dating scenes yet. And that was a totally different subject matter. One that involved vivid descriptions of touchystuff, etc. -.-"

Ok anyway besides the very obvious theme of a very forbidden(?) (not to mention dubious) love between some average city-girl-stuck-in-a-miserable-town and some incredidably too good to be real vampire (and all the aother random fantasies), it also made me think about envy and jealousy.

Envy is different from jealousy in the sense that envy operates from the position of the person accepting the fact that one is unable to achieve or possess something or a trait and yet admires and wishes he/she has it. but jealousy operates from the position that one does not accept the fact that the other person is deserving of whatever possession or trait and denies the fact that he/she is inferior.

Okay sounds quite mangled aiya i can't express it properly, but you'd get the idea right.

Just got back from extremely last minute cny shopping and realized something during the time i was there. I realized that I'm a person whose thoughts and feelings are easily swayed by people (maybe not by alot but quite easily persuaded). For eg, when someone says so and so is so very so and so. At first, I may not think of so and so this way, but after someone mentions it, I'll tend to notice the so and so aspect more acutely. Okay quite little link but i found this much alike how i can be easily swayed by the fact that I saw a pair of Converse that I was not very obsessed with (like the i-kinda-like-it but can-do-without-kind) but after the salesman said that it was like out of stock i suddenly found myself desiring it more. -.-"

Maybe that's the kind of person I am, desiring what that's not very easily obtainable. Call it delusional or tenacity. it's the same with ... my tree t-shirt and the elusive charlie pace loafers... amongst many other things.

okay fav song of the moment time. i know it's kinda old. when i first saw the mv i was kinda unimpressed cos the singer looked like she tried to make up for what she lacked in the looks department by wearing less. oh well's its a nice song lah (found out later)

10:37 PM

the first post of the school week shouldnt start off with a twingy tone i thought. so i went around deviantart to have a look and apparently this picture was supposed to symbolize ambivalent. and i guess its pretty much my feelings as of now since dunno when.

it was the ans i gave during the bio lesson introduction where we were supposed to describe ourselves with a bio term. and somehow amidst the "im a xx" or im a "xy". this word floated in my mind.

the distance is neither far, nor neither near. it's neither here, nor neither there. more importantly, i don't know what to do about it. i was young and naive and made my mistakes and regretted dearly but now its just... ambivalence.

oh well enough grousing, i realized i've been quite withdrawn of late. must be the bad meals i have from the canteen. omg lah, i realized everyone is kp-ing the shittiness of the new vendors. first was itallian "supremo" (quote somebody) which having eaten once, okay it didn't taste all that bad admittedly but the serving was measly for its exorbitant price. so we sort of decided to put up a united resistance against unfair pricing and refuse to patronize it until it decides to drops its price to a reasonable value.

day 3 of resistance- okay it's working quite finely as poor business have finally persuaded the angmoh to drop it to 2.50 but im still not gonna pay so much for so little.

the stall beside it, is not much better either. what chinese cuisine is there to talk of when the zajiang mian is like 2 mouthfuls with 3 plops of meat and 6 stalks of vegetable. i gave the auntie the disbeliving "WTF?" face when i saw my 2 dollar bowl. i guess she didn't catch it, not that she needs my patronizing since she still has a legion of undying fans of chinese "cuisine" with teeny servings.

ok this post is quite incoherent but aiya its just the musings of an angry hungry patron who cannot eat his fill from his school's canteen and can't believe he has to stick to it for 1 more year, oh and i hate my bag.

off to pack my bio file and finish my chem and maths undone hw.

8:35 PM

yep, the picture says it all, im obsessed with photography lately. took this at around 5pm opposite my block.

LOL. JOKING. that was a picture of how a rooftop looks like at twilight. except that im obsessed with a different kind of twilight.

yes. *cue laughter. boy reading girl book. ( but it's nice okay! )

i think this picture (although a tad too emo cos of all the blackness and all) suits the theme perfectly. tasting the forbidden fruit of love. cross species =x with a predator somemore. its like 海鸟跟鱼相爱. lol! (只是一场意外 - 珊瑚海 lol) stopping here for fear of spoiling.
(it's not like you haven't watched the movie yet but... whatever lol.)

one of the problems with reading a girl's book is that sometimes when there's no real action (as in fighting action) and theres nothing but descriptions of how holy angelic perfect picturesque EDWARD CULLEN is, you tend to lose interest very fast... haha so i can only read like 2-3 chapters at one go unlike my usual book reading escapades.

but i like reading books. it was a past time that i had not engaged in for a very long time. okay maybe not too long cos i read artemis fowl not too long ago haha. But compared to ebooks and online mangas the feel of holding a paperback, the smell of a new book (lol), delicately flipping page over page, racing to the conclusion, ahhh the feeling is indescribable.

okay im quite anal about this, all my harry potter books are treated with extreme care and i never flip open a book more than 3/8 for fear that the spine may get damaged. [confessions of a bookworm]

okay to spam my latest obsession... i went down to deviantart and explored abit and found lotsa funny stuff


twilight by ~chibi-oneechan on deviantART

lol somehow the edward looks like Light from Deathnote. probably added by the fact that he's holding a apple. ahha i think this pic is quite cool cos the main characters are holding stuff from the various book covers.


Twilight by ~anotheryou on deviantART

i think the edward looks like a screwed up ichigo in this pic. (note all these pictures were drawn like before the movie came out and all) but i like how they drew bella with the arms stretched like that to show her anxiety and all.

its the same thing with all movie books. before you watched the movie you have no pre-notions of how certain ppl look like. but after you watched the movie, reading any subsequent book will automatically form a mental image of the actors.


twilight-what every girl needs by *shirohato on deviantART

i think this picture is freaking hilarious. jacob black getting despised. lololol.


Chrome Charm by ~TheSevenSages on deviantART

random picture for my chrome to make an appearance once in a while. hahah i think this doll damn cute lol.



oh supposedly i read in the papers that this piece from the soundtrack is rather hot in the download charts. not bad i guess quite nice.



omg this vid is like. epic. okay lah not very but the last part (last5 secs) is dam HILARIOUS.



of course the usual end with a nice song video. i think the lyrics are quite well-written. Decode by Paramore!

10:51 PM

First of all, this being the first post of 2009, HAPPY 2009!

although im not exactly very early haha. here's a pic to go with it

thought it was pretty cute. i didn't notice the 2007, until like... now. omg. no wonder they're still young naruto ppl hahaha. ignore it but you get the message right?

unlike most ppl who begin their first post of the year remnisincing about the past year or setting new year's resolution for the new year, i guess my first post will be more of a reflection kinda thing about what happened today, at tkd grading.

actually it's more of a 感触. it's about something called confidence.

i've actually have had this 感触 not too long ago while watching xingguangdadao3 on 56. The particular segment was about how a quite favoured contestant was eliminated because of a fatal mistake : forgetting the lyrics. the judges attributed it to a lack of confidence which stemmed mainly from little practice.

it's the same no matter where you go, be it singing, taking exams or doing patterns. with practice comes confidence and the lackthereof will therefore lead to unsureness, like feeling around in the dark. movements will be made with uncertainty and of course, mistakes will be made more commonly.

with practice however, one will be much more familiarised with the well-rehearsed routine such that it's more of a second nature to perform whatever the task may require. radiating with the brillance of confidence, (even if you suck at it), onlookers will think "hey, this guy/gal actually knows what he/she is doing!"

and this, was what i felt after the tkd grading. needless to say, i was not the egoistical prideful high and mighty ever-ready warrior radiating with confidence even with the lack of practice.

and then it boils down to attitude and talent. with the correct attitude, you will be in no lack of practice and therefore no lack of confidence. with talent, even with minimal practice, you'd still be confident of what you're doing.

and that, was what i saw exuding. confidence.

so i guess this new year, i'd have to up my attitude since talent isn't really something you can train.

i didn't really make a fiasco out of the thingy btw, it was just not up to what i had expected.

and so, since i wasn't exactly really running high on self-worth having swarmed with so many things, i figured i needed a jog to get me flowing with endorphins.

was glad i finished my run routine and managed to get back my 7p.u form. yay so another resolution, get the discipline to excercise and also to rid of my bad habit.

okay nice songs time.



You had your dreams
I had mine
You had your fears
I was fine
Showed me what I couldn't find
When two different worlds collide
Two Worlds Collide - from my fav Demi Lovato!


Check Yes Juliet - We the Kings

12:26 AM