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yep, that's right shes in obs. Her absence made me think back on my experience in obs, but i soon found out that my memory of that event, despite me being a pro-camp person (think: camps aid in bonding) is close to zilch.

I can't even remember who i kayaked with (i think it was melvin) or who was in my group. All i can remember was that majority of my time was somehow spent with kj and linky (who were both in another watch) but our watches stuck together as a group in expeditions.

All i can vaguely remember is ... some shovel (which i forgot its name) but soon recalled it had something to do with dota, then i remembered it's called tool of entrenchment. (no prizes for guessing its purpose) and my wonderful experience with it (first and only contact - thank god) .

Then next was the time we were stoning in the toilet while waiting for our turn to bathe with Kj and linky after 3 days of mobile and our FIRST EVER time stepping into a modernized toilet in obs campsite. 

My last memory would probably be lugging some imba heavy bagpack and making it to our "somewhere hidden in the forest" campsite where we heard some wolves(?) howling and some other people howling as well (sounded like some old men were singing karaoke).

This post was about making choices, I thought long and hard about the issue during my bus ride home. Choices like choosing to do something, to turn up for something or not to do something or not to turn up for something. Strangely though, while I thought of many things, I suddenly can't recall a single thing. lol.  

I called up my tuition teacher randomly today. Okay, actually it was not that random, I realized that my POA was missing and felt insecure that my harry potter collection was incomplete so I called to check if it was with her (LOL). Had not spoken to her for like 2 years. I'm not sure what was the purpose putting that here. 

But my short convo with her made me realize 2 things. 1. Something really needs to be done about how I speak, I used to be able to code switch. But then somewhere along the line I decided to be lazy and thus led to a downward spiral such that I now talk to everybody like they're some ahbeng I befriended at the market. 2. make important choices wisely from now on.

It isn't that good to leave a negative post on top for too long. (hahaha lol don't snigger).

The past week has been hectic from the head to the tail what with a barrage of tests and activities going on simultaneously. 

In the end, it seems like I can't really wander off too far from the issue of ccas. I had to rummage through some Orientation Camp photos for some yearbook thing, which of course, needless to say (you know whats coming), got me thinking (again).

With all the recent events concluding, the last one being Flea-ker (the very last event under our banner), I realized how much/little (?) I've been invovled. I don't know larh, if you take a look at all the photos, it seems like somehow or other, either by choice or by certain circumstances, I cant be found in alot of the group photos. And I'm not sure what that means either. Even for OC, which I planned for, I was absent for 1/2 the event. -.-" 

All those times I have missed out on things, I'm not sure what I lost, and what it means. But this post wont be an emo post larh hahaha. To quote someone (rephrased to put into context), I cannot expect my experience in I and T to be the same as the experience I had in N and if I insist on just looking for the treasured times I had experience before, I'll just end up not finding it. 

Having said that, with Installation drawing nearer and nearer, the time to pass the baton looms ever closer, (i'm going to sound like I'm echoing the thoughts of what has already been exchanged online already), I'm sure I will still remember fondly some of the things we've been through together. Already, some memories are flooding my brain, immediately ILTC pops into my head, the times we spent stoning together listening to some old foggy drawl on and on into the history of .... (left blank for good measure), eating curry pok, talking cock and playing bridge into the wee hours so on and so forth. I will also never forget playing bridge and talking cock into the wee hours in another training camp i had attended around the same period last year (sparex ahahah).  [if you noticed, both events are camps. yes, I do think overnight camps are the most instrumental parts of bonding. afterall, it's the night activites where the fun begins. heheheh) 

All the talk about bringing tissues to Installation, (okay this is going to sound quite sissy) but I think, in the end, I'll still need them too. (haha). I won't deny I'm quite the emotional person. The last time something similar was held was POP, and yes it ended with me 泪水洗脸 too. Haha.

So I guess the point of all these was to say that at the end of the day, no matter what I feel/ felt at certain points of time, the past 2 years (in both I and T) were not spent in vain and I would defintely have memories I would treasue in time to come.

Okay it's getting repetitive, I'm gonna take a break from posting and go brush my teeth (started at 11.40? and its 12.30 now with some msn here and there)

left blank cos i wanted to post something here before the next few sentences but i suddenly can't recall what it was about.)

ooo I rmbed, hahaa i made this facebook quiz thingy about how well you know me. Apparently, lots of people thought my fav manga was one piece. Haha that's totally a misconception. My favourite is (and prolly will always be) Naruto. Alot of people also thought that the thing i hated most was my haircut so that either reflects that a)my haircut's really hateful at the moment or b)i care about my hair alot(?) lol. either way, the ans was that i actl didn't like (hate is too strong) my bag the most, the matter was taken care of today.

In an abrupt link back to anime/manga, my fav character fyi is not Orihime despite my obsession with hime hahaha, its definately Sas-k!!! esp the badass anti-hero TS Sasuke. And just fyi, my fav colour is actl something brownish (not reli khaki but khaki seems quite close and that was all i could think of). hahaha. I don't know, somehow brown gives this relaxing feeling, like very Nature-ish. Just like how I have this obsession with tree motifs. I still haven't found my perfect tree t-shirt btw.

Went to watch X-Men Origins: Wolverine today. Despite all it's negative ratings and all and admittedly a more inferior script as compared to its counterparts, with its stunning visuals and light-hearted jokes at some point of time really made it a feel-good movie and it totally deserves it's no.1 box office spot in both US and Sg. (ps i esp liked the part where he set a fire with his claws dam imba cool, that scene)

Just like how Adam Lambert totally deserves to win American Idol. Sunday Times ran another coverage on him today (actl it was on AI) but anyway it predicted that Adam was gonna win. yay. duh. haha, quite sad allison's out larh ( i didnt watch the results show) but i guess making it this far was already a feat for the 17 yr old. Adam ALL THE WAY!

But whatever larh, at least I got it off me =x like a rant.

About motivational posters. I did a quick search and found this quite cool hahah, some Amazing Race Starwars geek muttered it sometime ago.

Anyways I saw this motivational poster somewhere today and made me thought about a few things.

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( haha okay I couldn't find the online version of it but here's the quote anyway)

Haha. Ok I'll admit I've been not averygoodfriend who prolly doesn't find time on his calendar =x forgetting birthdays/ doing nothing, not turning up for thisandthat and other misc stuff.

But I daresay I wouldn't consult the calendar for some people. Ahhhhh, at least it's not too late to change.

"It's like complaining that the cow moos" - Simon Cowell. 

Straits Times ran a minicoverage on him today, and talked about his sexuality and how it might affect his winning chances. This week's results show clearly exemplified all the lambert fans' concerns but heck, that would prolly be the last time. Go LAMBERT(fanbert/glambert)!

But Wednesday really made me reflect.

I read somewhere where (on facebook) some people's fave place to be at (at the moment) would be at training or just somewhere near/related to their ccas.

And i wondered what about me. The last time i really felt like i wanted to be there was... I can't remember. (ok this will sound extremely politically incorrect, especially with what i'm supposed to be, aiding bonding and all so juniors who stumble upon this blog err, close one eye or 2 for that matter).

It's not like i hated to be there. It's just that there's always a feeling that something else needs to be done/ i'd rather do, or there's somewhere else i'd rather be. The close feeling of camaraderie I had grown to be accustomed to during my NP days, I can't find it in either of them (i'm not just picking on either one, its both generally or more specifically on the whole of what I'm doing.) In NP, sure, we get screwed more often, we read our emails trembling with dread and fear but there was also the sense of togetherness. rarh maybe it's my fault. 

For one, i always feel like i'm not putting my best due to aforementioned undesirable feelings, there's always a sense of inadequacy. For another/ the other, theres like a canyon of difference in competancy  between my peers and i now due to errr... severe lack of training from numerous absenties. Aiya, inadequacy is the key word, that's how I feel.

I'm not sure what this post was for, maybe to fill up the inactivty or maybe just for me to rant. 

I keep waiting for the moment, but it never comes.

Okay, on to happier stuff. Lambert is IN THE RUNNING for american idol!!! (duh?) Although i don't think he might actually win but whatever larh. I kinda like all 4 of them, although i think allison might win cos of this girl/guy/girl/guy pattern thingy rumour which i'm quite inclined to. Haha but if it comes to popularity, its down to adam/ kris allen (i have a sneaking suspicion its kris who would have the upperhand though). Sadly, much as I like danny gokey i think he'll be out next week. =x

Oh well's here's a live video to remind everybody why adam is still the best and to tell any random america visitor who might happen to chance upon my blog to VOTE FOR ADAM omg how did he end up at bottom 2 -.-"