sis ._. Picture

Cause i tell a joke or 2.

It's a bit to early to reflect on jc life but i have been feeling rather pensive of late. Had interact exco interviews and sitting there at the interviewer's panel made me think really hard about how i have spent the 1.3 years or so so far.

The very unfortunate (and mostly painful) truth that dawned upon me (even though i have been avoiding this) was the very fact that no, i had not really spent it well/put in my 110% and did everything i could to my best abilities.

After 3 weeks/21days i still feel immature as ever. Bridges were burnt and i'm not sure if they can ever be fixed.

im double posting this cos the lyrics weren't there... this version's last part is cut off as well... rawr!!! but i can't seem to find the complete version oh well's anyway the present parts are already imba enough...




People say I'm the life of the party
Because I tell a joke or two
Although I might be laughing loud and hearty
Deep inside I'm blue

So take a good look at my face
You'll see my smile looks out of place
If you look closer, it's easy to trace
The tracks of my tears..

Outside I'm masquerading
Inside my hope is fading
Just a clown
Since you put me down
My smile is my make up
I wear since my break up with you

So take a good look at my face
You'll see my smile looks out of place
If you look closer, it's easy to trace
The tracks of my tears..
I need you, I need you

10:43 PM

i typed out something but decided not to publish it.

haven't really watched this week's AI yet but i chanced upon this on youtube.



i prolly posted this cos it's prolly abit of what i'm feeling.
But then again, it might just be cause its ADAM LAMBERT.

1:11 AM

hahaha, so many people complained about the inactivity of this space so I'm about to add some life to it.

nothing much really.



im here to profess my love...
for ADAM LAMBERT!!! haha loved him since day 1 (audition) more confessions when im freeer.

okay, so people who don't follow the rules look for spaces like this, looking for a sign. I know its painful, more than anything, to walk past like nothing. it's mutual. it's not that it didn't turn out well, it's just that it has not been turning out well but the rest is still unwritten. and hey, look how far we've gone. its more than the halfway mark already with less than 1 week to go yep, we can!






this song has been a constant source of strength for me these days, don't know why but i just feel it's uplifting.

12:30 PM