and you might think im bulletpoof but im not.,
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
im in a bloody, nasty, effing mood now. and its not even mostly because of my screwed com.
i woke up this morning, turned on my lovely com as usual. But to my utmost upset (and surprise) a msg reading : cpu fan damaged, auto shutdowwn in a few secs to prevent dmg to com. GG. im comless.
then how am i blogging this, you may ask. lol im actually using this quaint pink netbook which belongs to my aunt. which means no wc3 or dota or anything liddat. purely for utubing fbing and msning.
on a relatively more important note. i feel $%&&**(
it might not be noticeable. but i really am. very much so.
warning, if youre feeling particularly blue and do not wish to be affected by the following contents, please exit blog RIGHT NOW. cos this is emo to the max.
actually, i hate emo posts. i used to think, rants and emo posts only shows how weak the person is. but then, thats what i am now. weak. and wallowing in self-pity. dunno lah, though prolly untrue but i feel like a rabbit trapped in this concrete jungle now. totally ill-equipped to face this terrain's complexities with its intricacies and complicated foodweb and relationships. everywhere, is a hungry lion, or a better rabbit, better than me. no friends or anything like a helpful ally. have to watch my back everywhere.
it's been almost 2 years already. and im still here. trapped in the jungle with no progess. and even lesser belief than before. they say once bitten twice shy. literal translation (sg version) , one time kenna bitten by snake, 10 yrs scared of rope. if you're thinking about something that happened years ago. you're on the wrong track.
it's almost end of the year already, and i most certainly don't want to end it with regrets. but my greatest enemy is myself. or so i think.
as kee-en pet phrase goes: sucks to be you. deal with it.
weak.
yes. im listening to chinese songs now. that means im really upset.
提起你名字心還跳動
卻沒重逢
只有想碰卻又不敢碰的那種悸動
也許我們當時年紀真的太小
從那懵懵懂懂 走進各自天空
該怎麼說 讓彼此選擇
但思念還轉動
10:13 PM